Tuesday, 2 March 2010

Flying out.

Tomorrow I fly off to Korea. I've kept everything very hush hush during the whole application process, and visa processing and bla. But now it's really here.
I'm sad but excited too.
I'm sad because I'm leaving my mum and it's just unbelievably heartbreaking. I don't think I realsied how...huge this would feel. And it kills me. It makes me not want to go. It makes me NEVER want to go. But it's happening now, and I can't stop it. It'll make us both stronger, even though it will hurt.
I'm excited for obvious reasons. I've been planning this forever and it's actually happening now. Setting off on my own is a bit crazy for me. No one in my family has ever done anything like this.

But y'know, the sad aspects of going to Korea dull the fizz and sparkle of the independance of branching out.
FOCUS. My focus should be on the good bits. Only then can I stay happy and positive.
I'll miss my mum, but it's ok, she's gonna come out there in a few months for a mini break.
It'll be good.
It'll be amazing.
I'm hungry
I love my new Stitch plushie.

Ps. For Korea blog:

Nothing is on there yet, but as soon as I get internet set up over there, I'll upload an entry :)

Wednesday, 20 January 2010


And I self destruct. I can't sleep. I'm just thinking about the way I look at things and approach things...
I think I'm stubborn...and a bit ram headed..and I have this issue where I think I'm right.
Its shocking when you realise you're not always right...its a really foul feeling.
I'm sorry if you have experienced this...destructive nature of mine..
It must be tedious for those of you who stick around to see me do it time and time again.
I always wish I was a better person, but I just don't know where to begin the improvements.
Does anyone else ever get that feeling?

Tuesday, 19 January 2010

This is a test.

Its been forever and a day since I updated this thing...I have no good excuse really except that life reached a whole new level of monotony..each day rounding into sleep, and not 40 winks later, you're up again to greet another day.
I recently got a blackberry and ill be posting from here..its pretty cool I must say. I hope they have BB data plans in SK that I can switch over to while I'm out there. Let's pray I get a job out there...
This phone is pretty wonderful.
Sylverine skips the country soon..I'm gonna miss her heaps...which is just foul. I also feel a brief bout of vegetarianism coming along..