Forgotten

I said I would utilise that other blog. But I didn't.
I will now though. I was thinking last night of posting on this blog. But I'm not sure. I think wordpress is just..better.
So if you're reading this, then go to Picapicapie
I'm there.

PS. The characters of this blog will retain their names at Picapie

Flying out.

Tomorrow I fly off to Korea. I've kept everything very hush hush during the whole application process, and visa processing and bla. But now it's really here.
Tomorrow.
I'm sad but excited too.
I'm sad because I'm leaving my mum and it's just unbelievably heartbreaking. I don't think I realsied how...huge this would feel. And it kills me. It makes me not want to go. It makes me NEVER want to go. But it's happening now, and I can't stop it. It'll make us both stronger, even though it will hurt.
I'm excited for obvious reasons. I've been planning this forever and it's actually happening now. Setting off on my own is a bit crazy for me. No one in my family has ever done anything like this.

But y'know, the sad aspects of going to Korea dull the fizz and sparkle of the independance of branching out.
FOCUS. My focus should be on the good bits. Only then can I stay happy and positive.
I'll miss my mum, but it's ok, she's gonna come out there in a few months for a mini break.
It'll be good.
It'll be amazing.
I'm hungry
I love my new Stitch plushie.

Ps. For Korea blog:
http://picapicapie.wordpress.com/

Nothing is on there yet, but as soon as I get internet set up over there, I'll upload an entry :)

Boom!

And I self destruct. I can't sleep. I'm just thinking about the way I look at things and approach things...
I think I'm stubborn...and a bit ram headed..and I have this issue where I think I'm right.
Its shocking when you realise you're not always right...its a really foul feeling.
I'm sorry if you have experienced this...destructive nature of mine..
It must be tedious for those of you who stick around to see me do it time and time again.
Grr.
Sigh.
I always wish I was a better person, but I just don't know where to begin the improvements.
Does anyone else ever get that feeling?
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This is a test.

Its been forever and a day since I updated this thing...I have no good excuse really except that life reached a whole new level of monotony..each day rounding into sleep, and not 40 winks later, you're up again to greet another day.
I recently got a blackberry and ill be posting from here..its pretty cool I must say. I hope they have BB data plans in SK that I can switch over to while I'm out there. Let's pray I get a job out there...
This phone is pretty wonderful.
Sylverine skips the country soon..I'm gonna miss her heaps...which is just foul. I also feel a brief bout of vegetarianism coming along..
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Christmas season is upon us

It's been a while since I updated and lo and behold, christmas is not far off. The Square now has its lights up and its just so pretty. I want a Christmas tree. This season is gonna be crazy at work so I dont know how well Im gonna be able to maintain this thing. But i will try.
I miss you sylverine!

Cut out

I was on my way home the other day and I saw my shadow and well..quite simply, it looked a little like those paper chain girls..so I took a pic. The markings on the road are there because they're replacing pipes and whatnot.

Next!

I am so over it. Seriously.

It's been a few months away from university and over this time, I've really felt the gap yawn wider and wider. I'm not saying I'm worldly and all because I'm working.

For God's sake, I'm working in retail right now, it's not exactly challenging.

But being away from university...it's different. There's a different sort of responsibility on your head. A different expectation. And a different sort of bone numbing tiredness.

I don't think people really understand that.

Also, on a mental level, I think I've drifted from people. I see things differently now. Maybe I'm growing as an individual or something. Certainly baklava has had an input. But seriously, I am so over folk of the Dictator and ....I'm glad to be away from the place.

I'm glad I don't have to be around them all anymore and my contact with them is limited.

Not all though. I miss a LOT of the people from the Dictator. But...it's easy to get over.

I'm over the pettiness of it all.

On, to the next phase of life.